Week 7 MKMMA

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Last week we received the Gal in the Glass, I was having a really hard time with this poem.  My head was saying you are cheating the girl in the glass but my heart was saying “no you are not”.  It was this yin & yang struggle all week.  I finally realized that my “subby” is mad at me!  I thought I was doing something wrong…why was I cheating the gal in the glass?  All week I was out of sorts reading this.  This course is challenging my subby big time and I love it!  I am being challenged daily on the readings…reading Og and reading my DMP an Press Release with passion.  I have been fighting it since the beginning but since I have read the Gal in the Glass it has been even more challenging.  I am not a perfectionist, I am not detail oriented, I am organized and not disciplined.  My mind wanders; I can go off on 200 different things while reading anything. So, I am in constant struggle with my subby to STOP!  I am reading my DMP and talking about a new home and “subby “goes you’re not going to get that home…this week I have been saying “oh yea I am going to get that home”  no doubt about it!   We all live in this backward and forward struggle and are constantly questioning ourselves.  Sometimes by the way someone looks at you or makes a smart comment or does not look at you or talk to you.  The battle is constant and really I would like it to end!

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MKMMA – Week 20

Week 4 has proven to be very challenging for peaceme, I have put the bricks back up, they were coming down…slowly and I feel like I have reverted back to before week 1.  My Subby is working overtime to challenge me!  I am battling self control to which I thought I had good control over.  It is scary to realize that old patterns can come back so quickly.  This really is a lesson in control!  I have fallen off the wagon both mentally and physically, no exercise no reading, no sitting in silence and it has been a struggle.  So, I have written “chore” cards for myself for each day of the week this week.  Little things like get out for a walk, going to zumba classes, reading, and sitting in silence.  Hopefully I will look back on this blog on week 26 and say boy you struggled but you made it through!

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Week 17HJ

So, I have not written for a while as I felt I had nothing to write about.  In talking with my guide tonight, I do have something to talk about!  Here it goes,  I recently learned that I am an EMPATH

Empaths are “all about” feelings. They can pick up feelings (and some thoughts) from others, about things, experiences, and feelings they do not know (by learning, experiencing, and feeling) through that bond. It comes as first nature for an empath to do this – as natural as a thumb on a human. So natural in fact, that often an un-trained empath has no control over this ability and can do it involuntarily. This can often be mis-interpreted as: an act of previously spying (snooping around) on someone, coincidence, evil, or just plain being “weird.” But those who don’t have this ability but know those of us, who do, KNOW that we carry this great responsibility as best we can. This is both a gift AND a burden. 

Being an empath, means living a life where you face not only your pain, but the pain of others as well. Luckily, the same can be said of the good times; and feelings of happiness as well. Being in a position to be able to help those that seem often beyond help, because empaths can experience their pains which most others could never understand. Often being made into loners by their powers, and ostracized from society because of its inability to comprehend empaths; or their gifts. Empaths have very rich (if occasionally eccentric) personalities, flairs for the dramatic, senses of character, and strongly rooted codes of honor, morality, and humanity. Healers, feelers, listeners, speakers, writers, poets, romantics, and visionaries. All these things, empaths are; and so much more. 

Learning this I was completely overwhelmed I was sad, scared and thought that my life will never be the same.  But, I have been this way all my life, and I am ok, I can do this, it’s all good.  I started a meditation each night after my sit for Empath’s and I tell you now I feel like I can take on the world.  In my sit I would see what an Empath looked like, what I looked like and that was a loving, caring, beautiful person.  It is not a threat it is a grace.  Each night for weeks I did this and I now know that I can do this, I am strong enough, I am loving enough, I just learn to put my shield up when I see it coming, when I feel it coming.  My shield protects ME from taking on other people’s stuff.  I can feel for them and give advice but I cannot fix them.  Just listening and not judging me or that person is a huge relief.  Listening to my intuition is fun!

Thank you MKMMA for making me realize this gift!

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Week 12 – MKMMA

Well I was hoping that life would settle down for me but it is CHRISTMAS!  My job is keeping me extremely busy and I am working at least 60 hours a week and I am exhausted.  I work with physically disabled adults with whom I adore.  There has been some stuff going on with the Government that is not good.  We are fighting to keep every one in check and trying not to let them know what is going on.  So, my mind is running all over the place…my subby is certainly challenging me daily.  I have not been religiously doing my reading as I have just fallen right into bed…it is mental exhaustion.  I tried to do the meditation during the week and I had to turn it off because of the feedback my computer was giving…do disappointed! I do have to say that the “BEAR HUGS KETTLE” has helped me this week when angry thoughts came over me.  It worked great!  I have it on a sticky everywhere and everyone is asking me and I love it!!  It is fun!  Hopefully, with some time off at Christmas I will be able to relax and enjoy life.  So thank you for putting up with me not writing for a couple of weeks, I was full of sadness and could not come up with anything to write.

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Week 11 MKMMA

I have writers block and extremely busy with stuff going on at work.  Sorry I will write next week or if I find the time I will write during the week.

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Week 8 MKMMA

Well this week has been a very reflective week for me, I have had a friend pass away of a brain tumour.  She was 42 with a 4 year old daughter.  Another friends father passed away and my weekend consists of visitation and funerals.  As I think of my friends suffering and waiting to dye what goes on in her head…and all I could think of was living the dash.  There is a book and a poem of living your dash, you start with a date and end with a date and it is the dash in between the dates that count.  What would people say when I die.

I struggled with the Gal in the Glass Poem for weeks and I read it again the other night and I always struggled with the “if you have cheated the gal in the glass” and I stopped myself and my thought that I have cheated the gal in the glass WHEN I really have not cheated the gal in the glass, I love the gal in the glass. I had been all over the place in my mind…sad, happy, worried, glad, grateful, mad…and I have tried so hard to calm it.  Last night I had to just sit and calm my mind.

This morning I have decided that living MY DASH to my fullest potential is my dream.  Let the world be, let people be, let things happen, I cannot control the world and what goes on around me but I certainly can handle the way I deal with all of it and  that makes my dash valuable.  My dash is not invisible my dash is my life. So that when I die people will say “look what she accomplished in her lifetime!”

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Week 7 MKMMA

brene

Last week we received the Gal in the Glass, I was having a really hard time with this poem.  My head was saying you are cheating the girl in the glass but my heart was saying “no you are not”.  It was this yin & yang struggle all week.  I finally realized that my “subby” is mad at me!  I thought I was doing something wrong…why was I cheating the gal in the glass?  All week I was out of sorts reading this.  This course is challenging my subby big time and I love it!  I am being challenged daily on the readings…reading Og and reading my DMP an Press Release with passion.  I have been fighting it since the beginning but since I have read the Gal in the Glass it has been even more challenging.  I am not a perfectionist, I am not detail oriented, I am organized and not disciplined.  My mind wanders; I can go off on 200 different things while reading anything. So, I am in constant struggle with my subby to STOP!  I am reading my DMP and talking about a new home and “subby “goes you’re not going to get that home…this week I have been saying “oh yea I am going to get that home”  no doubt about it!   We all live in this backward and forward struggle and are constantly questioning ourselves.  Sometimes by the way someone looks at you or makes a smart comment or does not look at you or talk to you.  The battle is constant and really I would like it to end!

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